As i speak my friends mom is dieing in a hospital bed......
i want to consoul her i want to tell her its ok, but i know deep down that this is almost a lie....
i want to say that its going to be ok, i want to tell her that everything is going to be alright in the end. but somehow i feel that its not......
i feel the pain shes feeling. i know what she is going through. yet i feel so distant. so helpless.
for each passing moment her life is slipping. the doctors have told her that this could be the end. heart attack on top of overdoseing of morophine..... there is a slim chance of survival......
how do you tell a 15 year old girl that your parent who has cared and loved you since birth?
i know that if i was in their place i would never forgive myself.....i would probably die inside if i couldnt do anything and everything in my power to save her mother.....
i bet that that doctor couldnt care less about her as a person... to them they are just another paycheck.....i pity their idiocy i pity them completely for their one track minds.....
Stay Smiling.
Mr.Smilez
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
A Time to Wonder
Right now im in a predicament. I really like this girl at school but there are a few things that are standing in my way.
One thing is that shes a freshman and i dont know what she would think if i told her.
Second is that she is a friend and i really dont want to risk losing her friendship.
Third is that i dont even know if she feels the same way.
i want to make this work but i dont want to lose her.
i guess i have comitment issues or something
can someone please give me some advice i really need some help.
Stay Smiling
Mr.Smilez
One thing is that shes a freshman and i dont know what she would think if i told her.
Second is that she is a friend and i really dont want to risk losing her friendship.
Third is that i dont even know if she feels the same way.
i want to make this work but i dont want to lose her.
i guess i have comitment issues or something
can someone please give me some advice i really need some help.
Stay Smiling
Mr.Smilez
Monday, February 16, 2009
A time to Reflect.......
It has come to my attention that in the past few weeks since i posted my last blog i neglected to.....well moreover forgot to tell who i am and tell stuff about myself.
ima make a list of stuff to make it simple.
Name: Andrew Scott Zimmermann
DOB: 9/10/92 (do the math re-re)
Occupation: Gamer/Student
Accomplishments: Eagle Scout (11/5/07), Sea Scout Apprentace (9/17/08), VFW(veterans of foreign wars) Scout of the year fullerton district 2009, Kodiak Leadership Training, NYLT Trailblazers Leadership Training, Troop 93 Scout of the year 2008, 5 star Recipiant Lutheran Religious Award BSA(Boy Scouts of America)(1/5/09), Arrow of Light (2003), Confirmed (5/1/06), Honor Roll/Principles List elementary/middle school(2000-2006), Honor Roll (2007-2008), Leading Roll school musical "Hats off to Freedom" (2006)
Likes:
Musicals- "RENT", "SPRING AWAKENING", "ACROSS THE UNIVERSE", "SWEENEY TODD"
Television- "RED DWARF", "FAMILY GUY", "ROBOT CHICKEN", come to think of it ill watch almost anything thats on
Music- "JONATHON LARSON" (look him up), "MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE", "COLDPLAY", or some show tunes, mostly classic rock
Sports- Soccer, Tennis, Sailing (yes it is a sport and an amazing one at that)
Professional Sports teams- Spurs (basketball), All Blacks (Rugby), Brazil (Soccer)
Movies: "DONNIE DARKO", "MATRIX" (I, II, III),
Other- I like to sing, draw, i like math, programing, but almost above all i liek mudkipz
Artists- Rebecca Guay, Volkan Baga, Steve Argyle
Dislikes: Football, Country Music, Disrespecting people, Condescending people, Idiotic people
Favorite Quotes:
"I'm more of a man than you'll ever be and more of a woman than you'll ever get." Angel Schunard
"Take the blue pill and the story ends. You wake in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I'll show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes."--Morpheous
"Remember Remember the 5th of november The Gunpowder, Treason, and plot, I know of no reason that the Gunpowder treason shall ever be forgot......." --Guy Fawks
"Your going to come across a lot of shitty bands, and a lot of shitty people. And if anyone of those people call you names because of what u look like, or because they don't aceept you for who you are. I Want you to look right at that motherfucker, stick up your middle finger, and scream FUCK YOU!" -Gerard Way
"It is by what we ourselves have done, and not what others have done for us, that we shall be remembered for the ages."--Francis Wayland
"May you awake to find that you were only ever a dream...." --Mr. Smilez
hmmm what else is there to tell about me........ ask me questions if you have any comments = goodness
Stay Smiling
Mr.Smilez
ima make a list of stuff to make it simple.
Name: Andrew Scott Zimmermann
DOB: 9/10/92 (do the math re-re)
Occupation: Gamer/Student
Accomplishments: Eagle Scout (11/5/07), Sea Scout Apprentace (9/17/08), VFW(veterans of foreign wars) Scout of the year fullerton district 2009, Kodiak Leadership Training, NYLT Trailblazers Leadership Training, Troop 93 Scout of the year 2008, 5 star Recipiant Lutheran Religious Award BSA(Boy Scouts of America)(1/5/09), Arrow of Light (2003), Confirmed (5/1/06), Honor Roll/Principles List elementary/middle school(2000-2006), Honor Roll (2007-2008), Leading Roll school musical "Hats off to Freedom" (2006)
Likes:
Musicals- "RENT", "SPRING AWAKENING", "ACROSS THE UNIVERSE", "SWEENEY TODD"
Television- "RED DWARF", "FAMILY GUY", "ROBOT CHICKEN", come to think of it ill watch almost anything thats on
Music- "JONATHON LARSON" (look him up), "MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE", "COLDPLAY", or some show tunes, mostly classic rock
Sports- Soccer, Tennis, Sailing (yes it is a sport and an amazing one at that)
Professional Sports teams- Spurs (basketball), All Blacks (Rugby), Brazil (Soccer)
Movies: "DONNIE DARKO", "MATRIX" (I, II, III),
Other- I like to sing, draw, i like math, programing, but almost above all i liek mudkipz
Artists- Rebecca Guay, Volkan Baga, Steve Argyle
Dislikes: Football, Country Music, Disrespecting people, Condescending people, Idiotic people
Favorite Quotes:
"I'm more of a man than you'll ever be and more of a woman than you'll ever get." Angel Schunard
"Take the blue pill and the story ends. You wake in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I'll show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes."--Morpheous
"Remember Remember the 5th of november The Gunpowder, Treason, and plot, I know of no reason that the Gunpowder treason shall ever be forgot......." --Guy Fawks
"Your going to come across a lot of shitty bands, and a lot of shitty people. And if anyone of those people call you names because of what u look like, or because they don't aceept you for who you are. I Want you to look right at that motherfucker, stick up your middle finger, and scream FUCK YOU!" -Gerard Way
"It is by what we ourselves have done, and not what others have done for us, that we shall be remembered for the ages."--Francis Wayland
"May you awake to find that you were only ever a dream...." --Mr. Smilez
hmmm what else is there to tell about me........ ask me questions if you have any comments = goodness
Stay Smiling
Mr.Smilez
Thursday, February 5, 2009
A time to vent.
it has come to my attenetion that certian people in my life are no more than hinderances.
for example my skipper (Tim) claims that i am "disrespectful to him" and that i have "pushed all his buttons"
if leading by the book and by moral standards is disrespectful then kill me and dump my body in the ocean.
i see the only disrespect fuming from anywhere in the ship is from that low-down-son-of-a-bitch skipper that leads like hes a 5 year old.
his way of leading is yell, yell, yell, point fingers, yell, ignore you, then claim to be listening but in reality is completely ignoring every thing you say wheather for the betterment of him or the ship it is irrelivant to him.
for background information Timothy Martin has no son or daughter in the ship. he claims to be spending hours and hours on end responding to my "disrespectful" emails and dealing with ship business. he has expressed NUMEROUS times to me the ship and the adults in the ship that saids ship is to taxing on his family life and that the ship is a "nightmare".
if he believes its a nightmare then please explain to my why the fuck he even stays around!!!!! the ammount of times i have disrespected him numbers in the ZERO's. if you don't get that i will say it again
I HAVE DISRESPECTED HIM ZERO, CERO, NULL, NUL, НОЛЬ, 零, 0 TIMES.
his idiocy is driving me insane. the next time that he says "do you know how much time i spend on this ship?" ima scream into his face FUCK YOU LEAVE IF YOU DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO LEAD!!!!!
thanks fer reading my rants sorry if i offended anyone reading these i just had to vent.
Stay smiling.
Mr.Smilez
for example my skipper (Tim) claims that i am "disrespectful to him" and that i have "pushed all his buttons"
if leading by the book and by moral standards is disrespectful then kill me and dump my body in the ocean.
i see the only disrespect fuming from anywhere in the ship is from that low-down-son-of-a-bitch skipper that leads like hes a 5 year old.
his way of leading is yell, yell, yell, point fingers, yell, ignore you, then claim to be listening but in reality is completely ignoring every thing you say wheather for the betterment of him or the ship it is irrelivant to him.
for background information Timothy Martin has no son or daughter in the ship. he claims to be spending hours and hours on end responding to my "disrespectful" emails and dealing with ship business. he has expressed NUMEROUS times to me the ship and the adults in the ship that saids ship is to taxing on his family life and that the ship is a "nightmare".
if he believes its a nightmare then please explain to my why the fuck he even stays around!!!!! the ammount of times i have disrespected him numbers in the ZERO's. if you don't get that i will say it again
I HAVE DISRESPECTED HIM ZERO, CERO, NULL, NUL, НОЛЬ, 零, 0 TIMES.
his idiocy is driving me insane. the next time that he says "do you know how much time i spend on this ship?" ima scream into his face FUCK YOU LEAVE IF YOU DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO LEAD!!!!!
thanks fer reading my rants sorry if i offended anyone reading these i just had to vent.
Stay smiling.
Mr.Smilez
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